I guess I am not a blogger

I have not posted for a very many months. Does that mean I am not a blogger?
Today I am here because I feel full of stuff....stress....tiredness.....blessedness(is that a word?).....luckiness....and so forth and so on .
I had a mass removed from the same breast that had the cancer before. It was cancer free! thank the Lord! The stress it put on my family was unreal! Everyone just waiting to see what it would be. Scott had the worst because he was with me when the general surgeon said it didn't look good. Then after new mammos and ultrasounds he said it didn't look as bad. I asked him, "What does that mean! not as bad!" he said just that it needed to come out so they could check it for sure. So, lumpectomy and reconstruction and new small breasts. I didn't know if I would wake up with any so I am happy with the smaller version. :) You see, we had decided if the instant pathology came back cancer I was having a mastectomy. Since it wasn't cancer (which got a cheer in the operating room) I had a reconstruction of both breasts because the one was soooo much smaller than the other and it had started causing me some problems with my back and neck. So I am a week out from the surgery and I feel good. I am tired but I will take that. I don't ever want to have to do any of this kind of thing again. I don't want my daughters or sisters or friends to have to go through any of that. Even though I KNEW it was nothing this time....it still bugs the back of your brain :/ . I don't want anyone to have to worry about me again. It is hard on me to think about what I put them all through. Family is the only thing I care about. It is the only thing I know I will always have. Eternally. I love them all sooooo much.